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Presenting celebrity blogger, Chum!
well, since i hardly ever blog, i've got the rarity covered. i just need to work on being tardy and i'm a full fledged celeb.
anyways, a couple of things have been going on in my mind and i felt compelled to write it down. i would have done so on a more discreet location, like my now-defunct blog. however, it's now-defunct so that's a bit of a problem already. so, here i am to bare all for all to see. yay us, then.
National-Bullshit-Service
i'm fine with going to tekong i guess. as in, i know the geting screwed and fucked left right center (kinky) is a given so i can't really complain much about it. it is the army after all and everyone's going to go through it. but what bugs me most about NS is the people i'm going to miss.
okay, all you guys here, i will miss terribly. i don't even know if we'd stay in touch anymore. will we get so into our army buddies that this thing we got going on here dies off?
then there's 2 other very special people i'll miss terribly. one of which is her. we're supposed to meet again before i go in (says her) so im keeping my fingers crossed real tight. i don't know where i stand in all this, whether or not she's the one, if im doing the right thing etc, all i know is that i will dread going in, big time.
the other's this fella who i'll miss less than her, but still miss nonetheless. that fella's like my bro (from church) so that'll make going in a bummer. he's like a younger brother to me.
succinctly put, i want things to remain the way they are right now.
A level results
it just popped into my head when i was on the bus this morning; the idea that we'd get results in approximately a month's time. and naturally i got paranoid and my mind started drifting off.
what if i don't do well? what if i have to retake? what if i can't get into uni? surely, arts fact in NUS isn't that hard to get into, right? what if i do well but others don't. what should i say to them? what would the relatives say/think if i don't do as well as everyone else? what would my sis say to me? does this mean i wasted 12 years of education?
i also realised that my results has to not only live up to my expectations but to the family's as well. the family consisting of both immediate and extended family, which for my case is HUGE (the numbers, not expectation. though the expectation still is high). that just exacerbated the conundrum and its terribly depressing.
that whole episode made me feel like shit then, until now (which is why im blogging). its apparently very therapeutic to write down what you feel and pour your heat out but so far, that's just bollocks. i still feel like a lump of shit. only difference is that now, everyone who reads this KNOWS that im in essence a lump of shit with a very lengthy blog post - not very flattering.
with that, i shall take my leave and sign off. take care, all who are going in on the 9th, 10th and 11th. i will meet you in a couple of weeks.
Chum.
anyways, a couple of things have been going on in my mind and i felt compelled to write it down. i would have done so on a more discreet location, like my now-defunct blog. however, it's now-defunct so that's a bit of a problem already. so, here i am to bare all for all to see. yay us, then.
National-Bullshit-Service
i'm fine with going to tekong i guess. as in, i know the geting screwed and fucked left right center (kinky) is a given so i can't really complain much about it. it is the army after all and everyone's going to go through it. but what bugs me most about NS is the people i'm going to miss.
okay, all you guys here, i will miss terribly. i don't even know if we'd stay in touch anymore. will we get so into our army buddies that this thing we got going on here dies off?
then there's 2 other very special people i'll miss terribly. one of which is her. we're supposed to meet again before i go in (says her) so im keeping my fingers crossed real tight. i don't know where i stand in all this, whether or not she's the one, if im doing the right thing etc, all i know is that i will dread going in, big time.
the other's this fella who i'll miss less than her, but still miss nonetheless. that fella's like my bro (from church) so that'll make going in a bummer. he's like a younger brother to me.
succinctly put, i want things to remain the way they are right now.
A level results
it just popped into my head when i was on the bus this morning; the idea that we'd get results in approximately a month's time. and naturally i got paranoid and my mind started drifting off.
what if i don't do well? what if i have to retake? what if i can't get into uni? surely, arts fact in NUS isn't that hard to get into, right? what if i do well but others don't. what should i say to them? what would the relatives say/think if i don't do as well as everyone else? what would my sis say to me? does this mean i wasted 12 years of education?
i also realised that my results has to not only live up to my expectations but to the family's as well. the family consisting of both immediate and extended family, which for my case is HUGE (the numbers, not expectation. though the expectation still is high). that just exacerbated the conundrum and its terribly depressing.
that whole episode made me feel like shit then, until now (which is why im blogging). its apparently very therapeutic to write down what you feel and pour your heat out but so far, that's just bollocks. i still feel like a lump of shit. only difference is that now, everyone who reads this KNOWS that im in essence a lump of shit with a very lengthy blog post - not very flattering.
with that, i shall take my leave and sign off. take care, all who are going in on the 9th, 10th and 11th. i will meet you in a couple of weeks.
Chum.
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